Constant companion ...

Just look at that little face with those innocent puppy eyes. That's how I've got to blog with the little one around. Yes, I also blog when she's awake. I always try to prepare a few posts in the weekend, but since she's not taking a nap anymore, that has become mission impossible.

I've put her little table and toys near my desk, in the hope she would play there instead of on my desk and keyboard. No way, she just wants to play at mama's desk or watch cartoons in Portugese or Russion on Youtube. No, she's not a genius who already speaks 6 languages fluently. She's just a stubborn little miss who wants to pick her own cartoons, never mind that she understands, she pretends to do so (or maybe she's more genius than we realize LOL).

And she's good at diverting me. She comes running for a hug or mama put on (mu)sic to dance again, just so she can sit with mama. 90% of the time, I don't mind, but sometimes I just want some me time, whether it's to blog or to design. I ended up designing from midnight till 2 am last Saturday, just to get something done. Putting me in bed at three and then wonder why I'm so tired. 

Not that she's the problem. She doesn't get why I'm cranky or don't want to cuddle with her at mama's computer. And I love spending time with her, she's the light of my life. It just bugs me that her daddy tells her all the time to go play with mama, so he can have some time off. Or that he can just go where he wants, leaving me to take care of her all the time. I just want some time for myself, does that make me a bad mama? I miss designing so much and it just calms me down. But how will I ever get to making a new collection, let alone open up a shop again?

Anyone out there with some advice?  

love, 

mama x